~ EuPHoRia MoMEnTs~

Monday, June 29

what's there to love about love?

... or marriage for that matter.

too many break ups/ divorce news!!!

Sigh - the fragility of love

Sunday, June 14

Perfect Match

Is there really such a thing?

Or did God plan in such a way that 2 human beings co existed to bring out the perfectness in one other and at the same time deminish the imperfectness in them?

Tuesday, March 17

Suayness has bestowed upon me

I lost my mobile phone today!!! that explains the above title. (warning: this entry will be full of endless ranting about unhappiness/ sadness/ tears.)

Anyways, for the funnies first:

Taken at Hans one "fine" rainy day:

can someone tell me what is "Very Strong Coffee w/o water"? Do i get pure coffee bean or coffee powder?

And "Yin Yang"?

i need miracles for me and Marco. Does rainbow brings that? or just that pot of gold at the end of it.

Preparedness:

These few questions been bugging me for the past few nights already and it isnt only work that is bothersome anymore.

- can dogs never die?

- at least not my Marco?

- can they dont fall sick or grow old?

- what if it strucks suddenly?

i have been crying myself silly almost every single night ever since that day. It's like these nagging thoughts that i can't seem to blemished from my head.

i used to always look at my boy and think, he will forever be a pup, at least in my eyes. at the age of 8 this year, he is still very much hyper and jumpy as ever. Also full of energy and running (or rather dashing) around the house. (considering his breed which is well known for laziness, i would almost say he hasnt inherit any of that trait at all)

It just seemed to me that he has sort of aged overnight? coz suddenly, his joints are giving him problem (as mentioned in my last entry) but these 3 wks of weekly visit to the vet for jabs seems fruitful as he no longer move in pain or whines at slight movement. ok, my dog is back to his pup behaviour... or so i thought.

so last wk being the 3rd wk, after his jab, i brought him to another vet for eye check as i noticed cloudiness and the current vet does not have the equipment to check those beautiful peepers of his. i was expecting old age ailment, like poorer eyesight, cataracts... since he was already getting joints aches... so those, i am prepared. but what came out of the nice vet's mouth was... my dog retinal has detached from his eyes. which translate to 100% blindness.

i was in shocked. i couldn't believe that as he is still moving around the house as per normal and doesnt knock into stuff around the house. Reason given by the vet was, this poor fellow had been relying on his other eye and not to mention his other senses to compensate for that blind eye. and of coz, his familiarity to the surrounding of the house has made it fine for him to navigate around. (I had since tell everyone in my family that no major shifting of furnitures are allowed).

This painful truth had struck me so unexpectedly. I have been thinking back alot on the past 8 years. What he was like when i first bought him, all his little habits. Suddenly, i felt i had taken the time with him for granted. My pup is no longer a pup. It saddens me to look at his eyes now especially when his glance is on me.

I fear of what is more to come. Of all the What If.

For now i know for sure, I will never ever be prepared when it comes to my boy.

Thursday, February 19

Aging?

This blog entry will all be about my boy - Marco... simply cause he gave me a scare just few days back.

i came back home from work one fine day and he didnt come prancing around, jumping up and down as he usually would. That for one, is strange enough. worse still, he has no interest in his treats.

Observing him the whole night, he seems to be in pain and kept crying (and by dog crying, i meant whining away). It seems to hurt him to get up from sitting/lying position or get into sitting/lying position and i can feel him trembling when he does that and of coz the whining continues.

It was a heart breaking sight that i panic and was in verge of tears watching him hurt so much. i frantically called a few clinics but were told the vets had gone for the day. (which mean it would warrant an emergency to get the vet back to those 24 hr clinic and not to mention the fees which will cost a bomb in such circumstances). In any case, i had decided there and then that i had to bring him to the vet even if he seems better the next day. was suspecting a case of fracture or sprain already and that would definitely not come as a surprise as my boy can really jump and run.

Whole nite i was so flustered and helpless as i could only watch him in pain. i decided to sleep in the living room with him and i literally did not get any sleep at all as it seems the pain got worse as the night goes by, that even when in the middle of the night, he wasnt even moving about but will still feel the pain and just kept looking at me crying as though wanting me to do something for him to stop the pain. The pain kept him (and me) awake thru out the night.

Next morning i immediately brought him to the vet. After some checks, vet concluded my boy's hips are giving him problem - arthritis! He was given 2 jabs (1 for joint and 1 for pain) and voila... i swear he can immediately run! Anyway, vet's advise was not to let him jump or walk/run too much as the moment the little fellow feels better, that's what he will start doing again and will easily get a relapse as this is a persistent problem that will not go away.

and that's what happen when he reaches home. he started running around as though the night never did happened. i always say he must make me spend money before he feels better (the whole fee amounts to $86) and that's not all as i still have to bring him back every wk for jabs for maybe up to a month? and to get him glucosamine supplements to take regularly. (i already got a pill cutter and crusher for that)

By the way, his eyes are also showing signs of clouding which i have to bring to another vet (as this one does not have the machine) to test eye pressure in his eyes and check the back of the eyes for potential problems coz if conditions are serious and left untreated, the dog could go blind when it rapture!!!

my my... is my baby getting old day by day un-noticed by me as it's disguised by his active nature and his child-like behaviour....